I never imagined that I would ever start a blog. If you were to ask me three months ago, I would have thought that was crazy, I love to write, but what would I even talk about?!
I never thought I would be going on a journey to find my triggers, identify pain, face that pain head on, sometimes at a 10/10. Or that I would be completely breaking apart my unhealthy belief systems, ones that I didn’t even realized that I believed. But here I am, almost two months after starting an amazing group life coaching program, Alive and Free, led by an amazing God-led power couple, Sammi and Spencer.
I will talk more about what led me to this finding this program and the journey it has taken me on, in my later blog posts, so stay tuned for those!
I really felt God was calling me into deeper vulnerability, not just with the women and my life coaches in the program, but with y’all, even the ones that I block from certain Facebook posts. I may get some backlash, I may be judged, I may lose some people. While that is such a scary place to put myself in, a place I don’t have full control over, it will be healing for me and I hope someone else finds healing or encouragement to maybe start their own journey <3.
I have a love-hate relationship with vulnerability, I love to get vulnerable with people both in person and via my Facebook page about my life story, but usually this is after I’ve done some healing. I’m no longer in the middle of that pain/grief anymore, and I can claim victory over the situation. I’m not so good with reaching out and speaking up about my trials, traumas, and pain while I am dealing with them, while they are fresh, or when I am triggered back to those feelings. I don’t want people to see me in my mess unless I can control what they see and hear. So buckle up, this may get messy, you are about to embark on my journey to love myself and change my views of life, God, other people, my story, and myself.